It's your heart breaking Juanne.
I have been fighting to find a one true love, a man to settle down with, a man to be complete with, unfortunately I don't think that is in the cards for me. No matter what I try.
I'll be honest. I thought I had found him. My husband. the first guy I got all girlie like at the idea of being his husband. I have been so in love that I did not realise the mistakes I was making along the way. I guess the problem is, that who I am is really good enough for him, but in my attempt to try make him see I am the real deal I went out of my way to prove how perfect I was. Never possible!
Nobody is perfect. That I can understand, but can a love ever be perfect? Can the love you share with another man ever really be perfect? Regardless of the heartache I still want to believe there is a perfect love out there for me... and everyone else, who wants it, for a matter of fact.
Time to get back to love, so I am off for a bit. Going back to Johannesburg for a while, visit my family i so dearly love and give some time for my heart to settle and just wait until I can move into my new apartment. I guess one huge fucking door just slammed in my face, but the good lord above has managed to crack open a window, and I am going to escape.
So here is to love,
May each and evryone find it:-D