Thursday, March 24, 2011

What is that cracking sound?

It's your heart breaking Juanne.
I have been fighting to find a one true love, a man to settle down with, a man to be complete with, unfortunately I don't think that is in the cards for me.  No matter what I try.
I'll be honest.  I thought I had found him.  My husband.  the first guy I got all girlie like at the idea of being his husband.  I have been so in love that I did not realise the mistakes I was making along the way.  I guess the problem is, that who I am is really good enough for him, but in my attempt to try make him see I am the real deal I went out of my way to prove how perfect I was.  Never possible! 
Nobody is perfect.  That I can understand, but can a love ever be perfect?  Can the love you share with another man ever really be perfect?  Regardless of the heartache I still want to believe there is a perfect love out there for me... and everyone else, who wants it, for a matter of fact.
Time to get back to love, so I am off for a bit.  Going back to Johannesburg for a while, visit my family i so dearly love and give some time for my heart to settle and just wait until I can move into my new apartment.  I guess one huge fucking door just slammed in my face, but the good lord above has managed to crack open a window, and I am going to escape.

So here is to love,
May each and evryone find it:-D


Anonymous said...

“We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly” by Sam Keen. Hope you will find ur one true love. :)

Jackdaw said...

There are many guys for you who can become your true love, each with their own imperfections, and willing to accept your imperfections. You're learned a lot and that will make the future easier. The best of luck and enjoy the love of your family.